My mind has turned to mush!

Setting up this blog should have been easy, right? It said that it only takes 15 minutes...or was it 5? So why did I stare at the screen for an hour trying to come up with a title? BECAUSE MY MIND HAS TURNED TO MUSH!!

For the past four months I have stayed at home with my two children, an almost two year old and a medically fragile preemie. Our lives have been a whirlwind of NICU stays, early intervention therapists and doctor visits since the birth of the baby. I am suddenly thrown into the role of not only wife and mother of two children, but also nurse, advocate, scheduler...

So why the untitled blog, you ask? I can barely put together a coherent thought, let alone a witty title. There is truly something to the "baby brain" phenomenon. And with the added complications of a sick baby, it's worse! My mind is so overwhelmed with medical jargon right now, that I don't think that I could start up a conversation about anything else!

I can't remember anything. If I don't write something down, it doesn't happen. I have learned to set alarms on my cell phone to remind me to administer the baby's medications on time. I have a calendar posted in the kitchen with all of our appointments each week; minimally there are two per week. Last week there were five.

In the midst of all of this chaos, I have sought out counseling, professionally and from friends, to help me cope with this unexpected life event. My husband has been nagging me for years to write in journal to help me process my thoughts better. A counselor suggested finding a way to connect with others via the internet, since meeting other moms outside of our home is not really an option. My best friend suggested a blog, because she enjoys my tales of motherhood and thought others would as well.

So here it is...my stream of consciousness. Some entries may be more coherent than others, depending upon the day. I used to write good... Maybe someday my untitled blog will have a new, witty name.